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Standing up to Feminists & Why!

Before I started #PTSDChat with Rebecca I was as ignorant as any other on the subject of male rape, false accusations of rape and why an organization like MGTOW exists. In fact, other than to smile to myself at the ridiculousness of all humans, I wasn’t much interested in politics, social or otherwise. All changed with #PTSDChat. The first time a man opened up to me, I was the first person he had ever shared his trauma with, it knocked me on my ass. Literally. I faint when stressed. Fortunately it was by phone so I passed it off as simply letting the phone slip and carried on. It was the first trickle of what became a flood of suppressed experiences that had haunted and hurt these men throughout their lives. I discussed it with every expert I could find in the field, they were as shocked as I that…

BEATEN BACK TO THE DARK PLACE

What does it feel like to be triggered back to hell? At first there is a feeling of intense claustrophobia breathing is difficult and there is a roar in my ears, intense and solid it’s almost impossible to think through it.  A creeping numbness crawls through my limbs, panic slowly builds and I need to run. I need to get away from this place. I can no longer see the people around me.  My children yes, but anybody else?  No. If I am lucky it is at this point that I pass out.  If I’m lucky. If I fight too hard and my children are close by, I will fight to stay conscious but this comes at an immense cost.  First of all, I am a wounded animal that is holding onto consciousness with every fibre of my body.  Any attempt to hold me, contain me or comfort is seen…

When Parents Hurt Kids To Appease Their Ego & Self-Interest

There is a child I know who lives with anxiety.  His self-confidence is zero, his ability to self-soothe is in its infancy and his voice muted to the point of barely audible. One of the things I know about anxiety is that the only person that can combat it is Me.  The only person who can measure it, curtail it and tame it, is Me.  I have lived with Complex PTSD from toddler-hood.  I have fought that dark demon with all my strength from the moment I realized that I stood on the precipice of madness – aged 3 (yes I actually remember the moment I stepped back and thought, no, not me, you won’t get me).  People all too often ignorantly believe that children, even very young ones, have no self awareness or ability to retain what they are experiencing, seeing and hearing.  That belief is beyond asinine. That…

Malfeasance at DND with complicity of Health Canada & VAC

Israel has a 2% rate of PTSD.  North America has a rate in excess of 30%, with 43 attempted suicides a day in the US military, of which 22 are successful. Why? Mefloquine has NEVER been the drug of choice for the Israeli Army; but then they don’t have canon fodder to spare, Duty of Care is something they actually care about. Let me tell you the story of Mefloquine, a neurotixcant that leaves 20% of those who take it with permanent brain damage (lesions on the brain stem) and 70% with common side effects (reference the Danish Navy for these gems http://veteranvoice.info/VVi/Webimages/antimalarial/Danish Study on Mefloquine Long-term.pdf). Around the time of WWII Quinacrine was created from Quinoline which is a lovely neurotoxicant, and the psycho-active ingredient in Mefloquine (Lariam).  Quinoline is a psycho-tropic.  From Quinacrine came Chloroquine (a drug I was given, sadly with pretty horrendous side effects as well).  Vietnam…