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TRIGGER WARNING What happens when all we see is RACE and HATE? #PTSDChat

She was screaming with blood streaming down her little frame, her nanny running towards the barracks at the border post calling for help in shona, her beautiful dark skin now grey, covered in the small red head’s blood that was congealing to a dark black smudge under the hot sun.  They went back to find what was left of the “garden boys” who had defended the little white girl from the machetes.  Her little bicycle was also found.  I didn’t see my sister much after that, they sent her to boarding school in Salisbury where she lived out the rest of the war separated from my brother and I who remained on the coffee estate that straddled the Mozambique Rhodesian border.  The year was 1972. When I was frightened it was big dark hands that picked me up and took me to a quiet shady spot, distracted and played with…

Dear Friend: the truth about PTSD & life thereafter

Dear Friend So much of what you say and are doing right now is a memory of mine.  Even your weight loss: I dropped from time to time to skeleton; when I couldn’t control anything else in my life I could control what I ate, or more precisely, what I didn’t eat.  That will never change.  When I am stressed I can no more eat than develop a diplomatic filter: ain’t gonna happen no matter how much time those around me spend on their knees praying for it. I am “fixed”.  Does that mean I am free of this injury? Ah jeez, that only happens in Disney and even there Bambi’s Mum got killed.  Reality seeps in even when we try our best to ignore it. I turned to the ever patient and kind Dr Jonathan Douglas (aka POTOPA) for a referral to a trauma specialist with an extremely  strong…

Growth MindSet : WTF? #PTSDChat

Rebecca and I are going to launch a fun PTSD Challenge: spoiler alert! I have chatted to a few friends about this, and one, laughed saying, I know which one you are, Katie dear.  “You’re a Honey Badger!”  See this to understand. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4r7wHMg5Yjg&sns=em I showed my kids the less expletive (swearing/cussing) version of this and they both said, “Mama you’re a honey badger.” Made me stop and think. Often times I march into a conversation and slap harder than I think I’m slapping, those that are getting this whole PTSD thing upside down and arse about face (in my opinion).  It often shocks me that I upset the apple cart quite as much as I do.  There are times that I very much want full impact and explosion – but that’s directed at institutions not individuals!  Most recently I had what I thought was a philosophical discussion on whether…

What is PTSD? #PTSDChat

Google it and you will find Wikipedia (that compendium that provides me with an opportunity to be an expert in sixty seconds flat, any subject …name it!) states that it is a MENTAL ILLNESS.  Right there is an enormous problem.  Not Mental Injury but “Illness”, ergo, contagious? Something that falls within the realm of physical medicine? Does it heck. I took a run at the Current and Ex-Presidents of the Ontario Psychological Association; they’re good enough to tolerate me from time to time.  I demanded (precocious army brat) that they support efforts to force DSM-5 to change Post Traumatic Stress DISORDER to Post Traumatic Stress INJURY.  It is after all, exactly that!  Dammit. {Pause for foot stamp.} Why is this important?  I wrote “whilst ‘Disorder’ might be valid for you doctor types for an individual who’s entire career is predicated on ‘tough’ (mind and body) it says they were born wrong.…